I turned down YTN and I would have probably gotten Petronas if I didnt settle for Vandy. I refuse to say I regret my choice but it's getting harder although it has only been a week. I can't go back even if I wanted to (because of the consequences I have to bear) and I wanna be able to graduate with my Vandy mates in 4 years time. I chose this path and it was with Allah's decree that I did. I still believe this is the best for me, but ya Allah, please ease my journey. Ya Allah, I know you love me and you want me to come back to you. Ya Allah, I want to rely on You for the rest of my life. Ya Allah, I know you got it all under control but ya Allah, please ease it for me. For the sins that I've done, I beg forgiveness from You. And I cant afford to flunk ya Allah, for my parents will have to bear the consequences as well and thats not how I should repay them. Forgive me, ya Allah.