what i was told

I once believed what I was told,
that a real love between a male and a female
doesn't need to be when the guy puts in so much efforts for the girl,
for this matter, I was told,
it will only mean that the girl loves the efforts,
and not the man for who he is.

My temporary belief in what I was told
would probably be due to the reason that
I was utterly blinded by love.

Because now I must say,
I was foolish to believe in that.

Because now I believe,
that efforts originate from love.
Well, in all honesty and based on my own experience I must say,
in some cases the guy puts in efforts more for the reason to impress
rather than for the reason to love.

How is one supposed to know, you may ask,
well, listen to what your heart says, I'd say.

Thank you, Allah for letting me slowly progress,
to slowly but surely unravel
what it is my heart truly desires.

Unlike what I was told
by the guy who could only love me before he learned my mess,
love is efforts.

Unlike what I was told
by the guy whose love for me vanished before I we could mend what we could,
love doesn't simply go away.

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I now have my own definitions for this,
and if it's not as my belief,
I don't want it.

Not even a little bit,
not even at all.