All this bottling up feelings shit is driving me nuts that I won't be surprised spending my nights in that fucking scary of a prison again someday cause I can't risk losing the very one last person I actually have left, that actually cares.

I've never been good with disappointments so I'm so fucking disappointed I ever kept you close in my life, the fact that I let myself trust and rely on you oh fuck it, there's no one to blame but me.

God forbid I ever fail someone in this way ya Allah u_u