Being in a position where I do not feel belonged anywhere,

or the whispers in my ears that then remain in my head that people could be speaking,

And well, people have spoken;

I am pushed to a corner and forced to remain silent with every of my thoughts cause without the feeling of belonging anywhere, I cannot trust.

Why is it that every time I write about something about myself that makes me a sad subject, I would find myself having to clarify that I am not blaming anyone?

What is with the constant fear of making myself sound like I blame others, as if I must clarify that no one is at fault but myself?

Whether it’s the case or it’s not, I do not have to apologize or clarify,

especially not here;

the only place I still feel belonged.

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So many times I feel so odd and different;

it makes complete sense that I fit in nowhere.