core

I admit to myself for being not really excellent in standing up for me,
in the way I carry myself.
Sometimes I showed too much for my own naivety,
leading up to people only taking advantage of that.
I give off the vibes of someone so firm or strong,
confident and bold,
and yet the truth is my cover is so thin that
it’s so easily blown that once it is,
I become so vulnerable to those around me.
I am very sensitive and also very scared.

I may still be learning myself,
learning to be able to carry myself enough,
and even it takes so long and even if this journey gets very lonely,
at the very least,
I want myself to hear this;

stick to your core.

Your genuineness,
the way you love,
the way you empathize,
the way you forgive,
and most importantly,
the way you always wanna try to be all that you believe in,
even if sometimes you fall back to square one again.

Bila niat kita baik,
walaupun orang tak tahu,
Allah sentiasa tahu.

Dan bukankah sebaik-baik balasan adalah balasan yang datangnya dari kasih sayang Allah?