People like me

Some of us can only wish that we are much more than what we are, that we are like the people we can only wish to be.

I have always looked up to so so many successful women since I was 15, and I have always thought that one day I‘m going to be just like them. 

But it wasn’t until college that I realized that there are some things that I cannot change about me. Even if I can, it’s gonna take lots and lots of efforts and whatever for me to make the change happen.

These people I look up to are happy, and these people are positive.

But I, on the other hand, have things that I struggle with that I somehow feel like it is (almost) impossible to ever be like them.

But as I write this, I know that I still wanna make it happen. Even if no one is ever gonna know my struggles while I *try*, I want to make it there— where I want to be.

Because I want to be a living proof that happiness and success are not only for people who are happy, for people who do not terribly struggle with things they cannot change.

People like me can make it. People like me that resent themselves for not being completely, mentally, and emotionally healthy, CAN make it.

No one knows how much it drags me down that I struggle with what I struggle.

But even so, even if no one’s gonna walk with me and understand, I want to do it for me.

Because unlike what I feel, happiness and success are also meant for people like me.