life update: embarking

A major lesson the past few months have taught me is that, life can really be so uncertain, and the ultimate power of everything lies only in the hands of Allah swt.

I have long stopped telling people much about my struggles or my dreams, but rather, whatever that I wish for and dream of, even if it may seem far-fetched for me at the moment, I find comfort and satisfaction in making prayers to Allah swt about it, or even by merely sharing it all with Him, while at the same time, working within my means in the best possible way that I can to make it happen.

When you are in the uncertain phase of your life and nothing seems to go your way, it really can get so difficult and very much confusing for you. 

But once Allah grant your prayers I tell you, Allah bagi tu banyaaaak sangat sampai kadang macam tak cukup tangan nak tadah. 

This is life, isn't it?

To remain steadfast and having full faith during the times of uncertainty will be the test of your faith.

Bila menunggu di saat takda apa-apa tu memang rasa nak putus harapan je,

tapi percayalah,

sabar saja;

semua yang you doakan,

semua Allah dengar,

dan semua Allah akan perkenankan pada masa yang paling baik.

Kalau tak sabar,

dari mana kau nak dapat pahala bersabar?

Kalau tak ada gelap,

macam mana kau nak kenal terang?

Kalau tak ada harapan,

macam mana kau nak kenal Allah dan semua sifat baikNya?

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Banyak lagi benda yang I masih harap dan doakan,

and I pray that if it's good for me,

Allah grants it all for me,

all at the right time.

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Ada banyak benda yang I tak tahu,

tapi Allah tahu.

Bila kau sedar kau punya batas

tapi Allah swt tidak punya batas dalam kekuasaanNya,

jadi kau titip pada Tuhan segala yang tak mampu kau jaga,

yang kau tak punya pengetahuannya.

Dan sesungguhnya,

semua yang kau titip pada Tuhan takkan pernah hilang dari jagaanNya.