almost 5

In all honesty, my days have started to feel slow, and my heart carries heaviness that feels like gravity pulling its center to the Earth’s core.

I never expected it to hit me like this. 

I had always thought I had myself more throughout.

And I never expected things to turn out like this; 

that your “a lot more” was only as far as this could go. 

And like what you always said to me, 

“Words weigh heavy for you.”

They do, indeed.

Marah, tidak.

Berat saja.

Kecewa.

But just like with everything else in my life, this, too, shall I apply “Ambil baiknya saja.”

This made me realize all my flaws, and those I wish I could have fixed and realized sooner. 

But it’s truly alright that all this happened.

Setidaknya I sedar kurang I kat mana as a person, it makes me wanna do better and be better and realize what I need.