Plans

Sometimes when we want something so badly, we do everything we can to make it happen. We make great plans as if we’re so powerful and it’s all in our hands. Growing up, I realize that we’re utterly powerless over such thing. We can put in efforts and make incredible plans that we think will work but after all, we’re only humans. The power to make things happen lies in the hand of none but Allah s.w.t. To keep myself from disappointments, I struggle to forbid myself from wanting something so much. I try not to have high expectations anymore. I even start to neglect how I feel nowadays to avoid overthinking. I don’t even know if I’m doing the right thing by doing so. I am not even certain if pretending to be okay with everything, especially things that really faze me, is the best thing to do. Is it really ok to tell yourself not to feel when God has created you with feelings? I don’t even know.

In Allah, I put my trust. In His plans, I believe. And Allah is the Best of Planners.