it will find its way back to you

I think that's the thing about life; there are actually a lot of things that are not under our control. There are people we want to be with so badly, or people we wish they treated us right just so we will never run out of reasons to not quit on them, or things we want to happen but the universe overpowers;

we could try so hard and so much but if Allah doesn't allow it to happen,
no matter how close you are to what you dream for,
by Allah, I can promise you;

it will never reach you.

It can be frustrating, really, and I still struggle with it, honestly,
but I just hope that my heart will forever remember that all that is meant for me,
no matter how far or near,
how difficult or easy,
how late or early,
at the end of it all,
by Allah,

it will come find me and it WILL reach me.

When you have given your very best and if your very best still wasn't enough,
then I hope you will find peace in knowing that it was never you who screwed up,
it was never you who gave up,
it was never you who turned back on your words,
it was never you who quitted,
and that you had given everything in your power to be the best and that even if you could go back in time, there is nothing else would or could you do differently.

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My sincerity,
my efforts,
my loyalty,
the way I learned from every mistake and changed,
the way I forgave every single time,
the way I chose to understand and justify,
the way I nurtured,
the way I cared,
the way I could love so, unconditionally;

is never validated based on how anyone chooses to treat me,
and even if it goes so unappreciated by another,

by God, I know this;

all the love you had given out of pure love and sincerity will always find its way back to you.