tbh

To be honest, this keeps me wondering and wanting the answer. 

To be honest, this isn’t an easy thing to decide. 

To be honest, I also realize how I could ask anyone for their opinion but deep down I know that it will all go back to the best way of determining it;

which is through the guidance from Allah.

Nothing else.

And to be honest, despite how it feels very vague at this point, I am already at peace and I find satisfaction in knowing that if I start to continuously pray for it and ask Allah for guidance about it, when it finally comes, I get to say and know that Allah guided my decision all along. 

Like, “I’ve prayed for this my entire life and I’ve prayed for this guidance for a long long time” kinda thing.